I Love Myself: & I Love PRIDE

So I mentioned going to my first PRIDE festival in Gainesville last year.

Well this year I was able to go again with two of my sorority sisters. We were able to catch the last hour of it and we got to watch a drag show.

It was one of their first time’s seeing drag so she was in awe watching queens drop to the floor and wear extravagant outfits.

The atmosphere of the festival was very light and joyful. Everyone was smiling, laughing and were engaged in the performances.

We also ended up going to University Club (UC), a gay club in Gainesville.

It was my first time going to a gay club and I had a GREAT time! The environment was free and open.

There were drag performances on the dance floor and the queens put on a show!

Everyone was dancing and having a good time. It was an effortless type of fun and everyone had good energy

The drinks were also reasonably priced and tasted good.

I definitely plan on going there again before I graduate this semester! I honestly can’t believe my first time going was my last semester of college.

Happy PRIDE ya’ll!

I Love Myself: I Don’t Wanna Be Your Ex

A few months ago I endured the biggest break up of my life.

Yes. I realize how dramatic that sounds considering I’m only 21.

I dated him for four years, so yeah that’s a good chunk of my life. We did long distance for most of college.

But needless to say, it’s still a hard breakup to go through.

Anyways, I didn’t want to stop talking to him or being best friends with him. After all, I met him when I was 16 and he was 15, so we were young and definitely in love.

An artist named Kiana Lede came out with a song called “Ex” and after hearing it, I immediately sent it to him.

We were in an awkward phase of transitioning from boyfriend and girlfriend, to being just friends. Which believe me is not an easy transition.

We’re still working out what we want from our relationship, but I know I don’t want to lose him from life completely. I care too much.

It’s songs like these that help me reflect on my emotions:

I Love Myself: Although It Took Some Help

Truthfully, loving myself didn’t happen overnight. And it surely didn’t happen on my own.

I owe a lot of my self-love to falling in love.

I fell in love with Brandt as a 17-year-old. I’m sure I’ll go into detail about him in some other blog post.

But essentially, through loving him I began to see some qualities that I didn’t realize I had.

I began to see how caring and persistent I am.

How I laugh really loud and take breaths in between each laugh.

How I like to do the opposite of what I’m told to do.

I learned that I might hesitate to try something new, but nevertheless I’ll try it.

I learned that I love freckles and that I get excited to count them.

I learned that when I want something I’m going to find a way to get it.

I began to fall in love with myself through Brandt’s eyes. And I think that’s the best way I can describe coming to terms with who I am.

Sounds more poetic than I anticipated it to, but I can honestly say I’m happy and comfortable in my own skin.

I love it and most of all — I love myself.

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With that being said, here’s a pic of me looking awkward but still cute. #GetYouSomebodyWhoCanDoBoth

I Love Myself: Skin Care

I’ve had acne since I was about 13 years old.

I would describe my skin as oily to combination, depending on the time of year it is.

Generally in the Summer my skin is more oily and in the Winter it’s more dry.

I’ve seen dermatologists and I would get prescribed creams, like Epiduo.

They would irritate my skin and even make it burn.

At some point I gave up on trying to have clear skin and I didn’t take care of it. I had never heard of a toner, moisturizer or even putting oil on your skin.

So about a year ago, I decided to do some research and try different techniques.

I started to use natural products, like African black soap and oils.

I used apple cider vinegar for a little over a year and realized that while it helps tone my skin, it also makes me have more redness.

I also learned that most of my breakouts are triggered by lack of sleep and certain foods. I’m not ready to give up cheese, but I’ve stopped drinking milk.

By washing my face at least once a day, toning it and using oils/moisturizers, I feel like I have more control of my acne.

This has given a big boost in my confidence. I still like to wear foundations when I go out to parties, but every so often I’ll skip out on it and be bare faced.

I wear makeup about once a week and that’s mainly because I’m a reporter or I’ll have an event to go to.

But I’ve learned that I’m beautiful in my own skin and I should truly believe that and practice that daily.

Here are some of my favorite face products:

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